Saturday, 1 October 2016

The Month of September // #blankthoughts

The Month of September was a funny one for me, but most certainly my favourite September yet. Not only did I successfully manage to blog daily (even for the first half of the month with no internet at home to do so), but I also managed to not get so stressed about certain things, clear my head, and well, simply live a little.

In tomorrows blogpost I will go into more detail about my plans for this blog, and right now I simply want to talk about me.

This month certainly wasn’t the easiest, and I would argue one of the hardest regarding my own mental wellbeing, as its certainly made me question a lot; but that’s for me to worry about and not you at the moment.

I’ve also challenged myself in a number of ways that the average human wouldn’t find too crazy or out of the ordinary, but for me really were quite big deals. Little things including starting my new dance course surrounded by people who I didn’t know/ haven’t spoken to for years has terrified me. Being 100% completely honest, I didn’t know if I wanted to do it, as I feel like my time in education really is done now, however, I can’t fault anyone on my course (not that I would on here or anyway!).

Everyone is so caring and completely down to earth that it is so refreshing and humbling to see, and I really really like that. I usually panic about joining classes and going to things because I really over think what people think of me, so for something like this where its something I am having to work really really hard for- I’m not going to lie I am kind of proud of myself (although I am yet to master a backwards roll which is kind of necessary!).

I still don’t know if I want to do this course, I certainly don’t have any plans to drop out, it just has never felt completely right in my brain, maybe it’s a time thing, or maybe I am yet to fully see what I will get out of it.

Blogging everyday was a big deal for me and my brain. Not only is it a really nice feeling to see the words you write on your little corner of the internet, but its also really helped me think about things in a different way. I’m not even going to deny it, I contemplated giving everything creative up many times this year and its been this month, The Month of September to help me realise everything I want again.

Beki x

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