Thursday, 7 January 2016

Where have I been?

Where have I been?
I always feel so guilty when I don’t post on this blog, especially as it’s something that is so special and so personal to me.
Writing is a creative outreach I look for when singing doesn’t do it for me. With how temperamental my voice can be sometimes its intriguing to wonder what my life would have been if I had never found a love for music.
Both my school and personal life has been incredibly testing of late, having one of your A Levels cancelled due to ill-qualified staff isn’t great. It sucks. I’ve had numerous arguments with teachers who have been ignorant to the main issue- apparently having an opinion over my education isn’t allowed!
All I know is that it’s time for another new beginning- and as my head of sixth form sarcastically put it to me whilst I sobbed my heart out- ‘With your work load decreasing, you have more time for improvement.’
Cutting an A Level may have buggered me academically, but creatively it has given me the nudge I need to prove myself and show specific people that I am serious about what I want to do, and that performing isn’t the easy way out. I have time to be creative and not feel guilty. It’s mainly allowing me to laugh and enjoy things for the first time in a very long time, and I can’t argue that.
There’s too much to dwell on in the past, lets work for the future...

Beki x

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