Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Dear Diary...#1

So today's post wont be anything exciting, and feel free to close off now.
Similarly to my Stress vs. Me post, this is another form of therapy for myself, I feel like I am writing a diary entry, this wasn't the post I planned, I don't want to seem attention seeking, at the end of the day its my blog, my hobby and I choose what I post.
Carrie Hope Fletcher, someone whom I see as an idol, has made many videos which I would definitely say have helped me over the years, she doesn't know who I am, but she appreciates every single one of her hopefuls, and I respect her for that.
'Turning On the Light' and 'Its Okay Not to be Okay' have hit me the most recently. There are a few very personal things happening in my life at the minute and I just find myself relaxing when I hear her voice through my laptop.
I felt a bit 'poopy' last year, but when I realised it was time to change, the end of 2013 was the happiest I had ever felt. However the majority of my friends would describe as a bubbly person, but they didn't see the me at home who literally wanted to shrivel up in a ball and cry/hide or sleep- especially at the beginning of this year.
At the moment I don't feel great, however I am trying to push through this, and hope its something similar to last year.
'I made decisions that I regret, and I took them as learning experiences... I'm human, not perfect, like anybody else.' - Queen Latifah
I usually don't regret anything I do, however one thing I wish I had done on two occasions? The two times I have seen Les Mis in the past 10 months, I wish I went to give Carrie a hug and say thank you.
I called this post 'Dear Diary...#1' because I don't know if I will do something like this again, however typing this post has already made me feel a little better.



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